2010

2010. nice number. And I hope it's gonna be a wonderful year too.

I still remember how i spent my 2008 new year eve. Alone. T0T... This year, it's different. I have u. =) Although I was a bit kek tiok by what u told me... laopo shud know what happen xD But anyway, it's still 2009 now. I can't say if u can tahan till 2010. kakaka. Hope u can. ^^

A new year ahead. Waiting for us is.. SPM!! I promised myself, my family and ahem, oh ya! still got laopo wei.. to work hard this year. Err... I must do it!! I don't want to disappoint my daddy and mom... So, i MUST do it!! Gambateh!!

Hmm... Now, i find back the feeling. weee~~ Everything's back to normal!! wuuhuuuu~ I finally smile. Real smile. No more fake smile. Honestly.. I'd been moody recently. Smile, fake one. Happy, fake one, also. Omg. I realized something. I really, memang, sin chang, cong mai, zhen de, jin eh, become thin liao. =o= my mum always complain that i didn't eat anything during this holiday. OK. i admit. i HARDLY eat anything everyday. No appetite okay? so.....

New year. I wan one more thingy. =p Ahem.. don wan mention here. But i think u know i know de liao. xD

New year post. Just a short one. I'm running out of idea to write more. So....... still the same line.

HAPPY NEW YEAR U GUYS!!!!!! AND MEET YA ALL SOON IN THE FREAKING SCH~~ sob. my holidays... buais... see u next year. =.='''

Buais, 2009.

Will miss not miss u. =)

last hope of 2009

My last hope for 2009.I thought i gonna make it.But in the end, i'm disappointed, i'm sad. I gave him this last chance. He rejected. =(

I typed a lot. But i backspaced all. I don't want to write more.

Bear: why are you crying again?

Girl: Because someone bullied me.

*Bear hugs girl*

改变

如今，

有很多事情都不一样了。

我心里有数。

我们好像真的有点变化。

以前，我们聊天的时间可以说是从早到晚。如今，我们每天最多只聊几句。

以前，只要我心情不好，你就会知道。如今，就算我说了，你也什么都不说。

以前，你视我为最重要的。如今，我连小小的的东西都比不上了。

以前，我只是几分钟没回复你，你就会再发讯息给我。如今，我无论多久没回复，你好像都不在乎了。

以前，我们总是什么都可以聊。如今，我们的话题却越来越少了。

以前，我每天早上起来都是开心的。如今，我每天早上起来都会担心，你会不会在什么时候不要我。

以前，你是多么的在乎我。如今，还是一样吗？

以前，你非常爱我。如今，你还是没变吗？

伤害，已经不只一次。

第一次，你说的话，我真的感觉到心如刀割。

我好不容易才从伤痛走出来。

我答应熊熊不会在流泪。

期望你不会再犯同样的错。

第二次，我亲眼看见。

心疼，还有我说吗？

眼泪在眼眶里，想也知道你是看不见的。

因为当时，你眼里的不是我。

我失信了。

熊熊又看着我流泪。

对，你没有犯同样的错。

但是是错得更厉害。

我的付出，你看见了吗？

我的伤痕有多深，你知道吗？

sorry =(

I didn't mean to do this.

I just wanted u to be with me all the time.

So now, i know u really cared about me. =)

Please don ever blame me for doing this.
I really, didn't mean it.

Sorry dear.

baby girl =)

A baby girl!!

She's shooo cute~

She likes to play a lot.

kakaka~

I played with her just now.

Her smile is so sweet~~

awww....

some photos to share with u guys ^^

my hand's so big. o.O

Happy 6th anniversary!! dear~

omg!!! i nearly forget. I was deleting my phone's note and accidentally saw the other note writing 091226, 6th ani.. I rushed into the room and blog now. sowee~~

Fans should know that 3 of them are fighting with SM right? =( But anyway, they still stand on stage, 5 as 1. =) I hope everything end soon, they can have what they want, and come on stage as TVXQ! ^^

I have no idea what to write. So, just a short one. Happy anniversary dears~ love ya much!! muacks

Hid my tears

Just stopped a quarrel,

and another started.

Nothing means, Don wan.

That was what you said.

Which hurt me thoroughly.

Never.

You'd never talk to me this way.

I thought things were gonna change.

To go better.

Who knows,

it turned bad.

I wanted to apologize.

But i kept quiet.

I didnt know why.

It's like that night.

I was alone.

You called, i hung up.

And i didn't know why i did that.

We're same.

You and me, waited for each other.

Maybe that's why we often quarrel.

We didn't know how to express what in our mind.

I wished that you can see all these.

But that's not going to happen.

I wanna say..

I'm sorry darl.

For everything.

Remember what i told you last night?

I really mean it.

Hiding is not a good idea.

christmas eve.

Thought i was going to have an unforgettable Christmas eve this year.

And yea, i did had one. But the other way round. =(

I guess only laopo and peng knew what happened.

They were the only one i told.

And i'm not going to tell another person. I crossed my heart.

I thought i was able to do it.

But i didn't.

I looked away whenever they talked.

I pretended that she wasn't there whenever he turned to her.

I lied to myself when i saw him holding her hand and leaded her in the dark.

Yea, laopo said at least had sweet memories in the cinema.

Only time i was happy with was the one and a half one hour.

All he had said was what he had promised her.

He never said, what i'd promised YOU.

Never, me.

Uh huh, you fulfilled your promise.

Bcos she had nobody to celebrate Christmas eve with, this year.

What about me?

This is the first Christmas eve i had you.

I NEVER HAD ANY OF MY FRIENDS TO CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS WITH ME FOR ALL THESE YEARS.

After living for 16 years,

this is the first year i had friends and you to celebrate with.

I thank you for what you'd given me.

This is the BEST christmas i've had.

An Unforgettable one.

Thanks Santa Claus.

You loved me so much that you'd given me all these.

Merry Christmas everyone,

except me.

I'm not going to celebrate christmas ANYMORE.

don expect much for tonight

sob. i was hoping there's a 2 pair tonight.

who knows someone pop out and said she wanna join.

Fk.

I wan her to stay away from me us.

yea.

i know i'm selfish.

but, to make him mine, i'll do everything.

u're mine.

pls don let her go.

pls.

or else, i swear i'm not going to talk to him tonight!!

choose.

me or her.

christmas celebration

I thought i was late at first. Rushing my dad when he was bathing =p

But when i reached there, many just arrived.

pictures here..

ahem.. just ignore this..

ying!! miss u sho much!!!

lil shud be inside...

these are all i have. lols, due to *ahem..

*lil, shud have upload that photo. but kept it instead. xD

**laopo!! moro night ur turn liao wei!!!

last christmas, i gave u my heart....

love you not now, but forever

hey, babe

do you know that you are the only reason i'm living?

I'm not giving up so easily from now onwards.

I knew something's still bothering you.

You can tell me anytime.

I don't mind.

I'm always there when you need someone to talk to.

Sorry for what I've done that day.

I knew that really hurts.

I didn't mean it.

Sorry babe.

Besides my parents,

You are the only one who asked me not to walk alone.

You're the one who asked me not to go near strangers.

You cared for me a lot.

I knew it.

And I hope that I'm the one and only person you cared so much in your entire life.

I don't care if anyone is to said that i'm selfish.

Love someone and you'll know how i feel.

I had never wanted to have someone so much.

I don't want to lose you.

I want you to be with me forever.
For the rest of my life.

I'll always be by your side.

I just wanted to love you.

That's all.

a ma vie de coer entire

not without u..

I was so addicted to this song, was one month ago i guess.

But now, i'm afraid to listen to this song.

Whenever i play that song now, i stopped it without letting it sing.

Listening to the lyrics reminded me of how stupid i was.

Thinking of to let go so fu**king easily.

And somehow hurt him deeply.

I'm sorry.

"放開所有　
彼此更自由

其實我絕非愛得不夠"

stupid me for believing that let go is a good way for both of us.

I'm really sorry, dear.

i won't let go anymore.

Never ever.

sobbing and tears

quarrel and fight

you and me

i'm back~

wuupiiess.. i'm back. lalala. Shop quite a lot there. sorry dad =p. But i just realized that i bought few clothes nia. @@.... lols. but accesorries bought a lot la... tee-hees.. i lazy upload photos here. cos it's freaking slow uploading photo here. =X wanna see photo just visit my fb. ^^ http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=818103547&ref=profile muhahaha...

8 days that i spent there... lots thing happen between us. TT Now thinking back, am shocked with what i did. sorry dear, for what i did. Know how much u love me now. i'm sorry for everything. don worry, i won't leave u. =)

我把一半的寿命交给死神，

他把你带给了我。

U're mine

Never knew that i can have you.

Never imagine that u'll be with me.

Never think that u're mine now.

I only thing i'm fear of is to lose u.

Couldn't imagine life without u.

I only wanted you to be with me.

Not others but you.

Dear,

you're the one i've been waiting for.

Love you.

Ti amo, sei mia

=)

Laopo!

Good luck wei~

have great times~

don forget what u promise xD

Good luck

Good luck

Good luck

Good luck

Good luck

Good luck

muaks~

damai

pretty huh? i'm lazy to upload all the photos here, so just view it at my fb. tq~~

went yesterday afternoon. my cousin texted me like mad when i was on the way. she was complaining why didnt i go earlier. =P sowee~ And guess where was she when i reached. SWIMMING POOL. ish~ throw me walk alone on the beach.

this morning. After breakfast, she pulled me to the beach~ i was watching lilo and stitch. ish~ sob. lilo~ ahem.. back to the beach. we kepo kepo walk here and there. other ppl also like tat mar. video something too. kakaka~ muahahaha~ *peng. =.='''

eeee. wan go back now. miss the beach. miss the sea. miss the bed. lol

miss u more. =p

tee-hees

saw this in a fren's fren's blog...

nice one.

so i steal it. =P

如果一个人

吃醋了
代表十分在意自己的爱人
心痛了
代表等待得到爱人的安慰
心碎了
代表希望得到爱人的体谅
哭泣了
代表期望得到爱人的拥抱

=)

everything seems to be fine now.

hope this works better for us.

love you.

miss you.

ToT

sob. no reply.

gonna end so soon??

T.T

haiz.

give up on waiting.

wanted to start conversation but cleared all the words i typed.

>.<

dono what to say.

HELP!!!!!

waiting

It's been one day already.

And i'm still waiting...

T^T

Expect this to happen someday

my phone showed 23:34

didnt receive anything from him after 12:27.

I'm starting to worry now.

yea.

I said tat i wanna let go.

But can i?

Obviously, no I CAN'T.

I'm smiling to everyone in my house.
But i guess only one person knew that i cried to myself.

And he had given lots advice, thx bro.

Yea. I'm not ready for this.
I can't let go.

I don wan to let go.

I wanna stay with him.

He's mine forever. He said that.

He said he didn't want to lose me.

But he seemed to have forget what he said.

I remember everything he said.

Never going to forget. Not even a line.

What i wanna say is..

I'm sorry dear.

I didn't want tis to happen.

I'm sorry i disappointed u.

But I was really sad when i saw what u wrote this afternoon.

She seems to be more important than me.

She seems to understand u more.
And u seem closer to her.

It hurts u know?

i'm still waiting for my phone to vibrate....