This is the list i came out with after the education fair on Saturday. Let's see...

- medicine (considered this. but i don even have 0.1% of confidence in this one.. next)

- dentistry ( my dad asked me "do u know u have to cabut ppl's teeth when it still stuck at ur gums? i was like, -0- ouuu.. ok. skip.)

- pharmacy ( i seriously was about to study this. but den think carefully, all the medicines.. plus plus my chemistry sucks. NO)

- psychology

- biomedical science

- medical biotechnology

- nutrition ( gosh.. vitamins and foods. NO WAY!!)

- music

- architecture

- pharmaceutical chemistry ( the professor's advice in the IMU booklet says that " must have strong chemistry. wtf. my chem sucks! )

- physics

done with the list. i'm still not very sure about it. just a rough idea only. i'm setting those as my target, just to push myself to study now.

yeeks

oh fuck.

just watched the interview about VanNess. He said he'd been in 6 relationship.. (wooooo~)

One of them is Vivian Hsu..

And he said his "first time" was at 17, with a fren that he DOESN'T LOVE. and he regretted. lol

and and and and and and and and and and and ... the reporter asked him what is his type..

he said must be cute, like in the japanese cartoon, eyes big big one. (aisiii... my eyes small wei. ++ no cute)

den when come to sexy, must also be very sexy. (swt.. i don even have any of these two... TnT)

wait. what am i thinking now?? oh no. this is not good. i'm suppose to finish my add maths chap 2 exercise, why on earth am i on youtube? screw this internet...

conclusion: i'm starting to go crazy over VANNESS WU!!!!!! woootz!

bye

"Delete all read messages?"

"yes" "no"

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i hit the "yes" button...

during the deleting message progress..

flashing backs appear.

things rewind.

and things can only rewind but not once again.

so i told myself....

" it's time to let go....."

"All messages deleted"

there's a slight pain. i'm sure this pain won't last for long. cause a whole new life is waiting for me. and i'm facing it alone. i keep on telling myself that..i'll be alright without u..but..seriously,

I'm not...

but what can i do? no turning back. that's right.. no turning back. so. this is it. everything ends here.

this is the last time i'm gonna say this.

Bye, dear. I love you.

oh no..

Yeeks!! We won. We won in the end!! O.o We stunned for a few sec when the result was being announced. And our next reaction was " oh shit! we won! " Which means... we're going into the next round. SHIT. ++ my mum's going to be so mad if i tell her i'm going back to sch for debate discussion. @#$%$#@ No more turning back so.. argh..

whee~ sports day is near. wahaha~ library club is going to sell some foods and snacks. And... Ah Miao wan all 5sc1 students support wei!!! Come our stall buy! Discount for u guys. =p If u go buy other club's thing, i miao piak u ar! List of foods and snacks we're selling will be posted soon. So, wait and SEE. =]

lastly. MIAO

To doggie =)

sobs.. doggie and kitty that day quarrel... doggie said he don wan kitty liao. WOI KITTY DIN SAID KITTY DON WAN U HA... nvm. as long as u still my doggie enuf liao.

1,2,3 DOGGIE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI! u 18 liao bo. woi woi woi! don misunderstand ha. doesn't mean 18 le can cin cai do things ha. ahem... but i know doggie wont do that de la. hiak

doggie ar. did i ever tell u that u're one of my best guy fren? I almost tell u everything. And that day dono who still ask me must tell him everything, including when i 'come' ... ==

still remember last year my mid term exam? I told u who i like right? And what u told me that time really make me bo sim. u were the only one who told me not to think about it. cos that time, u were the only one who know about it. Doggie ar, kitty cried that time u know? And after that doggie still taught kitty the buoyancy... haha. Tbh, i still sometimes forget how to do that type of quest wei. =p

Den, cny time, doggie chat with kitty, still say wan help kitty punch whoever who bully kitty. And still do dalang dalang for me. =) kitty smile le. and that was the first time kitty really smiled after that thing happen wei.

All i wan to say is that, doggie ar. Thx a lot for everything wei. although sometime u mmg kiampak wei, and sometime i really kek tiok, but deep in kitty's heart, sweet wei, happy de. First time i feel someone care for me wei. Thx doggie.

doggie, don kill kitty for uploading these photos ha!! once nia. =)

i din upload dalang dalang nia. =p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOGGIE~~

女人

1---如果你的女朋友在你面前哭了，無論什麼原因，請抱緊她，再反抗也要抱緊，趴在桌子上永遠沒有在你懷裡安心
2---如果你的女朋友指出了你的不是，請不要總是嫌她嘮叨，若不是因為在乎。。她不會說你
3---如果你的女朋友和你賭氣不理你，不要也學她，這正是考驗你們的時候，“臉皮厚”的精神此時不發揚又更待何時
4---如果你的女朋友不聽你的話，轉身走了，一定要追上她，若真的還愛著，丟下她一個人你又如何放心呢
5---如果你的女朋友說：“你走吧，我不想理你了“，千萬不要相信，女人最是口是心非，其實那是她最需要你的時候
6---如果你的女朋友生氣了，說心情不好不想吃飯，千萬不要問她想幹嗎想吃什麼，她一定說什麼都不要，買好你記憶裡她最愛吃的東西（最好是有包裝的，這樣等她心情好了再吃也不會冷），但一定不要以自己也不吃來威脅她
7---如果你的女朋友在每個月的特殊時候，請牢記，別問她吃不吃冷飲，常將手放在她的肚子上，夏天也可以，她需要那樣
8---如果你的女朋友對你們說狠話，請保持三秒鐘不說話，然後摟過她的肩，笑笑說：“老婆，你講話的聲音真可愛！”
珍惜一直陪在你身邊的女朋友，不要把她想的那麼複雜，女人要的永遠最簡單！


对，我要的就是这么简单。

呵呵，他...一件都没做到。他做过的，都是相反的。所以，我...不会在留恋。

whepeee!

Done! It's over! I somehow feel sad for A Night To Remember to end like that. When MC announced it was the end of the dinner, i was like, wth. so fast! it's the end already?! sobs. I never expected the dinner to turn out this success.. (it's a success right?...) whees~ I love 10 clubs presidents!!!!

due to the 10 clubs dinner disc to be sold.. so i'm not going to upload photos here. xD like lian said, SUPPORT 10 clubs! so, BUY IT!! =p

seriously, i had lotz fun last night. And the dancing part, wasn't that kin tio. But still thx lian for reminding me, lols. She was like, go to the front... , kneel down... , stand stand stand! .. lmao. luckily the music was loud, audience were loud too. WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

This is my BEST'EST, FUN'EST, HIGHEST dinner ever. i love the footloose part most. Ppl on the dance floor were more than i expected. Until not enough space to stand. And imagine u have to squeeze through the crowd just to find someone xD Oh ya, the chicken dance! Sia soi......... >.<

The ending of the dinner was quite disappointing.. T^T ended too early. Sheesh~ someone wan go home o o liao, so the dinner ended ard 9 something. wtf. whrgt dinner end so early wei!! ish. ruin our mood nia. sheesh sheesh! and plus plus the footloose got a part i feel like throwing up. UEK!!! guess some of u know what i mean..

most important thing is....

I AH MIAW LOVE 10 CLUBS PRESIDENTS SO MUCH!! CAN'T THANK U GUYS ENOUGH. I APPRECIATE THIS EXPERIENCE FOR PREPARING THE DINNER WITH U GUYS AND ALL THE UPS AND DOWNS. THANK YOU THANK YOU! WHEES~ sad thing the dinner ended so soon. sobs.

i miss last night already.. TT

iiksss!!

yah! my dearest presidents. 2mr is the day... TBH, i'm so fu*king nervous!! Thx to my dad who reminded me.

Dad: today 19th March right?

Me: uh huh..

Dad: ok.

Me: *continue doing my thing and suddenly my wire connected* OH SHOOT!! 2mr 20th!!

== yea. i know i'm lame. but this is how he reminded me. >.<

And. my dear presidents. PLS PLS PLS SEND UR VIDEO TO KHAI ASAP. KHAI IS SO PISSED OFF ALREADY U KNOW!! IF WE DON HAVE HIM IN THE DINNER, WHO THE HELL IS GOING TO MAKE ALL THOSE VIDEO FOR US? U IS IT?! JUST A PHOTO AND VIDEO, IS THAT SO DIFF? U THINK THE VIDEO CAN BE EASILY MADE? U THINK ONE NIGHT CAN FINISH IS IT?

Vanness!

yeeekks!!! gosh.. I fall for a guy. >.<

Van Ness Wu!! hiak. my cousin was like, ngaiti, why him? =.= he's not that bad ok...?

O.o his body.. (can't deny that Joon's better...) omg.

ok. back to why i fall this is guy whom i ever said " u like this guy! oh puhleasee... " when i see him.. While watching Autumn Concerto, i told my dad, "ddy, Vanness is not bad huh? " (my dad and mum watch with me, which is a weird thing. my mum hate taiwanese drama. =X More over, she's falling for Xiao Xiao Bin..) Vanness is so nice in the drama, though at the back quite 贱.

He seems like a dad. A real dad.

And, he's protective. Seeing him protect 慕橙 (lead actress) like that makes me cry. T__T

such a beautiful family.. =)

A little guy in this drama caused my mum to watch the first ever TAIWANESE DRAMA FROM EPI 1 TO 21!!!

小小彬

this is the scene where he saw the "宇宙 bubu" blocking the bus. lols, and hugged Vanness.

aww~ so damn cute.!!!

Did i mentioned that, my mum CRIED at the part where Vanness leaving 花田村, Xiao Xiao Bin chasing behind his car crying like hell... My mum CRIED wei!!!! She never on earth cried watching ANY drama wei! omg. this drama broke many of her record wei.

lmao....... he's so so so so adorable. I can't help but scream whenever i see him in the drama. xD

LOL!!

Autumn's Concerto. A MUST WATCH. U won't regret. =) even my mum wants to watch, u know what u should do. (=

Changed my background music to Reason by Vanness. hiak. he's SO HOT. omfg.

你应该已经忘记我们之间的约定了吧？

现在也只有我还在傻傻的等待奇迹出现。

想起你，还会不觉的掉泪。

看着日记发呆也不只一两次了。

控制不了自己还是会想知道你最近怎么了。

看了，又怎样？

有差吗？

冷的时候，不再有那双大手握住我的。

旁边 坐的也不再是你。

黑暗里再也找不到你的身影。

再无助，在伤心，再想你，

你也不再会安慰我，给我撑下去的力量，

再也不会叫我不要哭。

没有人愿意随时随地和我分担。

不再有人了解我想的是什么。

当每个人都在责备我的时候，

不再有个人陪着我。

既然你的生活里没有我，还是没有什么不一样的话，

那...我想，我也是时候...放下了吧。

@#$%$#@

I really so so so so very very very VERY DULAN now! WTF. watch one movie so ma huan. Wan think bout this think bout that. Ngaiti, so chi cham don go lo. Parents are too protective to children is a BAD thing!!!

I really wanna slap those who said, aiyo... this food, how can they eat? later sick ar. canot canot..

Ngaiti, girls nia mer? Must have boys ma. like that too dangerous le. canot canot.

so early mer? have to eat le. later go dono eat what.

== hoi. now u go or we go? Wan to be independent u don let. Then later u say so big liao still this dono that dono. Wan to happy happy go then now ended up like that.

I REALLY FU*KING DULAN NOW!!!!!!!! starting of holiday like that liao. spoil my mood nia. And still kena scold some more. like is my bad now. If not because of her i need so ma huan now mer? wont kena scold, no need go there. no need kena scold now!! and later ppl say kepo lo. teach bad ppl's kid lo. this lo. that lo. HOI!! SHUT UP OK!? U THINK I DON FEEL ANYTHING WHEN U GUYS SAY THAT IS IT? I NEVER SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE I RESPECT U!! FAKE IN FRONT OF ME. GO AHEAD LA. I DON GIVE A DAMN! I WAS ONLY A KID WHEN U GUYS SAID THAT ABOUT ME. U THINK TO A KID THAT'S NOTHING? SEE HOW U FEEL IF SOMEONE SAY UR CHILDREN LIKE THAT LO. DON TELL ME U DON BLOODY FEEL ANYTHING!

I swear i'm not going out next time if same thing happen. even u don hiu me i also nvm liao. since u never think bout me, wat for i do so much for u? i put u in first place and now see how u repay me? I really cant stand this anymore. Think u gave me what u did, and u can do whatever u wan? U think life is this simple?

Hope things go well tomorrow. or else i'm sure i'll burst.....

WHEE!!

i know saying this at this time is a bit late.. but who cares...? i'm still saying it. WHEEEZZ!!! EXAM IS FREAKING OVER!!!! MUAHAHAHA!! hiak! i was planning what to do during holiday since last week xD. I wanna watch....... (takes a deep breath...) 星光下的童话，推奴，就想赖着你，美丽高解像，and... ALICE IN THE WONDERLAND. Maxdy said not nice. But i still wanna watch. xD I know i wont finish all these during hols.. heexx..

ok. I'm phobia to The Spring Mall, a bit. Some know the reason. Those who have no idea what i'm talking about, sorry, not gonna mention here. So... some privacy pls?

Whees~ going to High School Idols tomorrow. Not really looking forward to it actually. Just wanted to know how talented kuching students are.. =3 laleli... laopo going also!! laopo's tutu going also. BUT sze not going. sobs... SZE COME MY HOUSE HA!!!!

last day

lalelo~~ after 12:55 tomorrow, we're gonna be free~ whee!!!! ok. i'm thinking too far. back to now. moro last day, crazy studying for like almost 2 weeks, i give up studying sejarah moro! cheers!!

so i made up my mind after talking to my dad. (=

me: *yawn* so tired.

dad: rest la.

me: fri still got sej le. that stupid V*** dono how set time table.. separate the papers for what. @#$%^%$#@ (had been saying this for dono how many times..)

dad: read through lo.

me: don wan liao. lazy. ddy, i'm not studying sej moro.

dad: cin cai u. don tired urself out.

hiak. my dad always ask me to rest. due to my headache-ness few months ago.

so. it's March now. which means. which means. WHICH MEANS!!!!! DINNER!!!!! OMFG!!! thinking back when we got the 10 clubs dinner thingy approved. And now it's already so many months later. WOOTZ!!! 9 more days and it's DINNER NIGHT!!!!!

Just talked to Miss Ting. She was like, sob. my holiday. sob. because of u guys i sacrifice my holiday. sob. Lol. she's so cute. with that face xD thx a THOUSAND time. eeekks. realised librarians should all hug u.