uh ouuuuhhh

oh great. damn it. i got to go to someone's house and see that b*tch again. wtf. i have no reason to run this time. and i know i couldn't run all the time. I god damn it still have to face her. HELL NO! screw it. we're still cousin.

i was SOO happy when my mum asked me whether i wanted to go to my cousin's house last week. I didn't answer but i guess my mum knew what's my answer. Hey, i'm her daughter! ok. The plan was, we go to serian instead of going to my cousin's house. ( just to make things clear. the one i didn't wanted to meet wasn't this cousin, it's another cousin. i love this cousin so muchie~ ) But then the plan changed. O.o FOOK! We still have to visit her house, and then we go to serian. T^T

I am praying hard now that, she is not going that early. Please~ i REALLY don't want to see her face. I've tried my best not to think about him. yesh, i just did. i missed him A LOT. i just can't help it. He just appears from time to time. i mean in my brain. AND SOMETIMES, i even thought that i saw him!... ok. yeah. i HATE her. seriously hate her. I can give u a thousand reason if u ask me why, but don ask. =) argh. i really need something so that i can stay away from her. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! dilemma.

let's get back to saturday. Went to see Show Luo, but FAILED. thanks to someone. Ahem. It freaked me out when someone called me i and found out was them. == shouldn't be that surprise as i should have expect to see them there. hmm.. but i still did. And the worst thing was, i saw 2.5 and 'his' buddy when we went to buy ticket. i was like, WTF! DON TELL ME HE'S THERE TOO!! so i texted 2.5. He said 'he' wasn't here. phew....... or else, i would really die there and then. Furthermore, i was so 'lucky' that we were in the same hall with 2.5. @#$%$#@... Whatever, luckily he wasn't there. THANK GOD!!

Can someone kindly accompany me tomorrow??? puh------leasssssssssssssssssssssssssseee~~~

the is so NOT GOOD :(

wuuuuuuhuuu~

my laptop is back. er. shud say. my internet is back. hiak. but no more wireless. =( damn. last week the 'buffalo' rosak. i think overheated. hehe.

plug the line into my laptop. O.o no response. wat the hell. ok lo. use pc. grrs. if my dad wasn't there to stop me, the pc will now, i think not-like-a-pc shape.... called my bro. do this do that. tadaa~ DONE. whee~

First thing i watched was, CABI SONG.. again. haha. actually shud say i DOWNLOADED it. =) i watched it over and over and over and over again. i just can't resist it. OMG. i'm obsessed to that song. O.O it was SO DAMN NICE. <3 yoona. <3 taecyeon. <3 nickhun. <3 yuri <3 seohyun <33333 arg. the girls are so prefect in that mv. i wanna prem my hair liao. =D wait my hair longer. kakaka. and the point is... MY MUM AGREED!! laleli~

Y- MBLAQ. wth. they are hawt. aww~ din really watch the mv. downloading. JOON!!! MIR!!! they changed btw. =3

Individual path. Oh My Lady, Cinderella's sister. Dramas to be watched. hiak.Not to forget Jae and Micky's new drama. =3

Uknow. Long time din mention about him liao. I read Epop just now. And i told vivian something. "Eh, u realised i long time din go crazy bout Uknow liao? " "ya lo. change ppl liao ma...." "YOONA!!!!!!!" lol. this is a bit abnormal. As the usual me will go for another boy's name instead of a girl's name. -.- ahem. ab-normal.

♥cabi cabi ou cabi cabi~♥

i'm 17 !!

yea. doggie's right. i'm 17. i'm 17. I'M 17 wei!! means it's the last year i'm gonna be in smk sungai maong wei. TT i know i'm gonna miss the school much after this. MISS MY FRIENDS!!!!

Plus, the more i know 5SC1, the more i love them. =3
i'm gonna miss the time i talked to sze during exam when she's sitting at the very first place while i'm sitting at the second last.

i'm gonna miss the time i teased hippo when i can't memorize anything before exam.

i'm gonna miss the time when charles does weird thing during exam.

i'm gonna miss the time when i slapped charles and he gave me the "late reaction" LOL

i'm gonna miss how lian said, "i hate u..."

i'm gonna miss how miss tan scream at us.

i'm gonna miss kueh khong doing all those funny thing that make me crazy.

i'm gonna miss khai's panda eyes.

i'm gonna miss how matt look at me when i called him. xD

i'm gonna miss how mark quarrel with me over the 'long-cat-and-short-dog-topic'.

i'm gonna miss how liang moi being perasan. =X

i'm gonna miss how ewen said he's taller than me. ish.

i'm gonna miss how other called me miao. =(((((

i'm gonna miss lots and lots and lots.

sob. DOGGIE AR! see u la. make me emo now. =( wait. bday shud be happy wei. =) =) =) smile. smile. smile.

and. doggie ar. u read my mind wei. how u know i still feel that? i was smiling all the way when i was reading ur blog wei. den suddenly read that one. i heard my heart "piang ping pong" sob. doggie bo. anyway. still thank you for giving me the lecture. best lecture ever wei. june come back i wan hit u liao.

And thx for the bottom of my heart those who wished me happy bday. thx and love u guys some much. <333 *hugs and squeezes* =3

goyang kaki

i shud be studying bio now, but i'm blogging instead. wootz. i finished Form 5 Chap 1,2.. Chap 3 gonna flip through tonight. =)

Form 4 chap 3 is in progress. But problem is, words just can't get in my brain. @#$%^&^%$#@. screw it. And i'm planning to sleep earlier tonight. craps. how am i going to finish revise chap 6?? (btw, i hate chap 6 (: and it's a freaking long chapter. )

so. God bless me, i just want to finish READING all the chapters that Pn Voon highlighted for us. Oh ya, i love Form 5 Chapters. Who doesn't? After being taught by Pn Voon?? Thx a lot Pn Voon !!! xoxoxo


ends here.

i really hate her!

ok. as i had expected. mother's day at my grandma's really sucks. Just seeing her face had ruin my mood. I didn't want to see her. but nothing could help me. i just had to. =((

except for the "hi", we didnt talk for the whole night. so did my other cousins. wulala~ that's what i wanted. oh yeah. so i sat there alone watching my own drama. (hey, i really love my Funtwist more and more now.. ) took photo and wtf. i sat beside her. sheesh. nvm. there was a cute lil girl. should call her my cousin or.... i dono. just cute. =) she's so sweet. aww~~

i was rushing my parents to go home asap. reason was... lame. I NEED TO STUDY. == yesh, i really did study when i get home. :) i said goodbye to everybody, including them, that's just respect. And she was like "ha... so early want go home liao mer?" WTF. shut up la u. who was the one who tried to ignore? when i wan go home liao, u baru keke wan me stay there. better don talk la u. make me feel like throwing up. luckily u aren't really related to me. I do not have a COUSIN like that, thank you.

wtf, this weekend still have to go to her house some more. whatever she said in that msg, i pui!! if that is really who u see me as, then u wouldn't be treating me like this. so.. i'm looking for a reason to NOT go to her house. =)) anyone.. kindly suggest some reason for me to escape that so-called party which i'm sure if i go, i'll lose appetite.

love u mom

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers. =))

mom, i'm sorry for everything i did wrong. i know i kept making u angry. u scolded me and i was mad too. i know it was my fault, but i didnt dare to apologise. i am not good in expressing myself, even to u.

i know how u feel when u see how close other's are with their mom, but i weren't. i feel the same too. when i see ppl holding their mother's hand, i feel like holding yours too. sorry mom.

i should apologise to u. but i didn't. i cried whenever u scolded me. and i know u did too. i only found myself wrong after i did it. so, i'm really sorry mom. and i love you.



mom, please do forgive me.

get into final!! and win =)


good luck khai, eric and andy...

who else??

good luck =))))