i havent forget

yea. i still couldn't forget that pain. I think i'll never gonna forget that moment.

The father hold his girl's hand, and she told him "i still like him a lot." He gave her a hug, she didn't care anymore and burst into tears.

The image of him gets blur, but the pain in my heart is still there. I learnt a lesson from that. I thought i was gonna be tougher after that. But i'm not. I ain't tough enough. I told myself, i'm not gonna fell into this, no more. But what am i doing now? What is all these? Why is the pillow wet again? Why is there tears on my cheeks again? Why is the heart feeling pain again?

I know i got to have faith in him and myself. But sometimes, u just can't do so. It's not easy.

Love is nothing,

or is it everything?

dream

I dreamed last night. A sweet sweet dream. Although someone said it's nothing at all. ==

I'm hoping for that day to come everyday. Hoping everyday, and disappointed everyday. Maybe that's why i dreamed about that. Maybe God wants to satisfy me with that dream. Hmm.. Thank God. =)

People said, dream is always opposite with the reality. Then, can i choose to live in my dream? At least it goes the way i want. =x

The spaces between my fingers is right where yours fit perfectly. ♥

i miss those days

Read some months ago posts. I actually miss those days. Especially Open Day. Do we still have a chance to have fun like that day? It's weird thing how u wanted to leave the school when u're in lower form, and how u didn't want to step out of the sch u've been studying for 5 years.

I've no idea what makes me emo now. Maybe it's the posts. Open Day. May this be the day the story started? If there's a chance, to let me choose, whether for this day to come or not. I'll still love to have this big day. And appreciate it more.

can someone please lend me time machine?

等待也是种幸福

haha. Is currently watching Can't Buy Me Love 公主嫁到. Tell u wad, this drama is damn funny. I can't stop laughing. And oh my gosh, i planned NOT to touch neither computer nor television in the second week, so this drama, i think, had ruined my plan. =S

ok. Back to the topic. Yeap. waiting can sometimes be nice. U'll not lose patient to it. Because thinking of what u're gonna get after the patience, u won't give up =)

And yeah. cheer for me. I have TOTALLY given up on that person. I think i should be celebrating this right? I have been wasting my time, being emo and even sometimes crying for this guy, for 7 months. Yesh. 7 months. Long enough?

I still remember what he told me that day. I'll never forget a word he said. Thinking back now, i still do not think that i was stupid for what i did. Yeap. i knew he was lying. He lied to me. I'm not going to tell anyone about it. Just wanna keep it to myself.

Although he lied, and i should be hating him now right? But no, i don't. I can't. It's nothing to do with Love anymore. If he didn't lie, i might still be the stupid one. If he didn't lie, i might still love him. If he didn't lie, we wouldn't break and... God wouldn't bring him to me.

I should thank him instead. Because, i found someone who love me a lot more than he does. =)

Thanks for leaving me.

And thank you for being with me. ♥

应该怎么办？

昨晚，我想了想。

我觉得我们现在需要的应该是时间吧?

我们之间有好多不同。

对，人家说，在一起了，就会慢慢了解对方。

但是，如果像你一样什么都不告诉我，那我要怎么开始去了解你呢？

我需要的是，

一个可以陪着我的人。

一个可以让我有安全感的人。

一个不会让我担心，哪个晚上又会因你而失眠的人。

一个可以和我分享开心与不开心的人。

一个可以百分百让我相信，而他也相信我的人。

一个懂得怎么去爱的人。

而，你却是

一个每天让我担心你是否心情不好？

一个开始让我失眠的人

一个什么都不说，只是告诉我，‘没事，别担心’ 的人

一个想爱，但却有不敢爱的人。

你知道吗？在我问你怎么了的时候，那表示我在关心你，请你不要告诉我你没事。 换作是以前的我，对，我也会说，‘没事。’ 但现在的我，不想隐瞒你任何事情。所以我会毫无保留的告诉你。

我问了，和别人问了，你给的答案是不同的。你知道那种要从别人那里知道你心情不好的，的那种感觉有多差吗？ 我的心有多痛，你明白吗？

你无法给我承诺，没关系，我可以体谅你。我只要你懂得怎么去爱一个人。你忽冷忽热，让我每天都在害怕，怕你哪天会就这么离开，怕你明天是不是又会这么冷？

我现在有种感觉。我好像回到9个月前的自己。那种每天吃不好，睡不着的日子。好恐怖。我不像变回以前的那个人。那个陌生到我自己也认不出来的自己。

所以现在能做的就是，给彼此一点时间，好好想一想，我们应该是什么关系，应不应该继续下去....

ILY.

IMY.

开始在乎了

我以为不再像以前一样，那么看不开，那么在乎。

我以为自己长大了，变成熟了。

我以为我可以忍受我之前忍受不了的。

我以为那对我来说不算什么。

我以为，我麻木了。

但事实证明我错了。

我开始时觉得，这没什么。

但刚刚，我的心情被影响了。

我因为那件事耿耿于怀。

我... 发脾气了。

虽然只是短短的两秒，

我还是吃醋了。

whee~

YESH!!! I had been waiting for this day for like a month or more. =) i did it. I thought i couldn't make it. But i did!!!

I got MERIT!!!

omg. i didn't believe at first. I thought i was gonna fail. The first thing my teacher told me when i got into the room was, HOI!! u did well in ur pieces! I didn't know what she was talking about. Then, i knew. She said what a pity i failed in Aural and sight reading. @#$%$#@. ok. i expected that. I knew i was going to fail that. Too bad i was right.

He was the first one i shared it with. =)

And to someone,

i think u are going to read my blog. So i'll tell u here. Hey, cheer up, boy. I know how u feel now. I went through that too. It hurts. Yea. A lot. I didn't want to even talk if i were you. But come to think about it. Like what u said, u don lose anything. She is the one who lose a good good person. She chose to find someone worse. So let her be. It's her choice right? You love her. So just respect her choice. Remember this, u don necessarily to be with someone u love. Just love her, and that's enough. For 6 whole months coming to 7 months, i did it. And i believe u're going to do it too. GAMBATEH!!! AZA AZA FIGHTING!

i was wondering,

what's the main point to love when u always get hurt in the end?