driving

My driving instructor said i have to GO FOR DRIVING EXAM ASAP. wtf.

i asked him, "u think i ready liao mer?"

He answered me this, " i think la, exam ready liao, but after exam.. umm.. hehe. "

LMAO. Means, my driving skills is still.... *ahem.

Yesterday, when i was driving back, there was a L car in front of us. My driving instructor asked me, "feel like over taking? " I turned to him and.... SHOOK MY HEAD. He was like, asking me excitedly, and when i shook my head, he was so disappointed. haha. ok. In the end i did over took that car.

Ok. So, today, my dad left the car and talked to my neighbour. I was like, let me drive! And my mum was like, u sure? The first thing i did was stepped on the brake, because there's a BAD EXPERIENCE. Just keep this as a secret, shall we? Move the gear down to D1.. And the car moves. My mum beside me, told me what to do as if i never drove a car. Nevermind, that was the first time she sat beside me. And she doesn't trust my driving skills. ><

BUT I DID IT! I PARKED THE CAR SUI SUI IN THE GARAGE. muahahaha~

JYJ AR!!

ppl in kl are now probably queuing up to get into the JYJ concert. WE THE KESIAN BUDAKS CAN ONLY SIT INFRONT THE COMPUTER, COMPLAINING ABOUT PPL WHO GET TO GO TO KL. wtf. this is so unfair.

I want to be in kl now. =(

JYJ AR!!

梦

那一幕，好真实，让我无法相信自己。

你的每个动作，表情，触感，感觉就像你在我身边。

你让我转过身，说你想重新做决定。

这次，这次，你换了选择。

选择了你曾经说的不够爱。

我好高兴。

但为什么？

就是不能让我真的真的开心呢？
为什么？

我不明白。

因为是场梦，所以我宁愿自己不醒来。

梦里的你，特别的温柔，特别不同。

我知道这只是在欺骗自己。

但我不管。

我不想面对真正的你。

更不想面对残酷的现实。

为什么只是场梦？TT

ouch.

As time goes by, things happen. But if it's different thing that's happening, it's fine. But same things are happening to me over and over again. I hate this. I hate everything that's happened to me.

Nothing's started, so that's not considered as the end i guess? I have no right to complain about anything right? I have no right to blame anyone about it right? I can just shut up and pretend that nothing's happened right?

I was lying to myself all the time. I denied everything that i found out. I was to afraid to admit. I didn't have the courage to admit that i'm gonna lose him in no time. So, i just pretend that nothing's happened. And, for your information, my six sense is freaking accurate. Which is a bad thing, hmm.

Imagine, you know when are u going to die. And u'll be like, please, i don want that day to come. U'll start to be emo, panic, or even go insane. In the end, before u die, u become crazy. ok. this is not an appropriate example. Who cares? I mean, it's just bad. Bad BAD. =[

i wish i never had fallen for u.

BOO

It's a miracle i'm blogging here. =3 I told myself i have to study Bio today, but ended up facebook'ing and blogging. ==

hmm.. Studied for the whole week. I guess i should take a rest. Relax, listen to some songs. Leave my mind blank for a while. Just for a while.

I realized how much my bro love me after he called few days ago. He called and talked to me. He never talk to me that way. I had been wanting this kind of love for who knows how long... He told me something that nobody ever told me. He support me. Yea i know. People around me do support me. Just that this is different.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks as he continue talking. I secretly promised myself, "I won't let myself down. I have to strive for it. No matter what. " And i felt bad. The advices he gave. I felt ashamed.

So, i have to change my attitude from today onwards. This is so not the Shirley Chai i used to know. I knew i changed. But i just deny it. I didn't have the courage to admit the truth. No way i'm gonna continue being like that.

Thanks Bro.