april fool and miss 5sc1

It's april fool today. During previous yearS, i would be like oh shiat, it's april fool so i have to be careful.. But this year, i am like, damn i miss how i walked into school and spent the day in school with my dear 5sc1.


Charles texted me last night. It was a lame message, but it makes me miss u guys more. TT IF we are still schooling, many things will be happening in class today. 


Charles is probably gonna do another colgate oreo or something and drive Miss Tan crazy. 
Ewen is probably gonna make us laugh our ass off. 

I miss all these. I miss last 5sc1. 

I miss each and everyone of you. 

Seriously.

mah man

Lalala~ during the 4 days my cousin was with me, we went crazy over ZE:A. rahahaha.

We were randomly watching their mv, Here I Am. We went wikipedia and google searched for their image. In the mv, we paused from time to time to tell their name. haha. It was fun. xD

I am so proud of myself for i can remember all 9 members' name. If you understand me, you should know what i'm gonna write next. 

DONGJUN!!!! We went wild whenever he sings.

Junyoung!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh! His eyes kill!

 Hyungsik! He's cute. =)

 Yeah, i know u love Dongjun so much in this still. =)))))  i purposely put this larger so that u can see his expression. 

 all 9 members!! opps. Taeheon is behind Junyoung. 

AND!! Here's my first place. 

*meltssssssss* *droolsssssss* *facepalm*

is there even a chance for me to say he isn't perfect?

last but not least, CHANGMIN is so handsome in this mv. SO! I mean it. =)

Jung Yunho  ♥

Staying over

My darling cousin stayed over at my house because her parents went to kl. 4 days 3 nights. Lol. Funny things happened whenever we are together. Especially at night.

We chat chat and chat. We were talking about the names we created. Lmao.
Me: what name ho. i can't think of one le..
Her: "全秀脚"
Me: hahahahahahaha. "全秀鞋"
Us: ahahahahahahahahaahahahaha...

This was basically what we blah-ed about. Lame jokes right? But i don't care, we enjoyed it. In the end, my mum came over and asked us to sleep.

Last night, she wasn't here. I was kinda not used to it. Nobody sleeps beside me. No jokes. No laughter.

I MISS YOU!!!

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! 




This is the only word that fully describe my mood now.

• I don't know what to do next. 
• I don't know what i planned was right or wrong. 
• I regret for not being a Lodgian. 
• I am worried about what i shouldn't. 
• I pissed myself off.
• My mum pissed me off.
• MY LIFE PISSED ME OFF

Done. That's all. 

Life? 

Satisfied and Disappointed

Once i reached school today, i heard screams and shouts. Noises. Yeah. That's 2010 Form 5.

During the queue, my heart racing, screaming from time to time. The most kek tiok part was, khai and mark were at the front, trying to see their result from miss kho. And then, smiles. Sure good la!

Eric Jee was in front of me. He flipped through the papers, straight As. Kek tiok. I was so excited when i saw Eric Jee's result. And i smacked him so hard. SOWEEE..

My turn. Scanned throught. 2Bs. Wait. How many As? Right. 2Bs! OMG! 2Bs!!! wulalala. So-no-way-to-describe-my-mood. Walked all the way to bilik sumber. We were like pretending bilik sumber was our classroom, 5sc1, same old 5sc1, shouts, chats. Mark was busy calling Lian. haha. That's epic.

Everything was so perfect that minute. Until he walked in. His result. Yesh. Ruined my mood. I felt my heart collapsed. Hard to breathe. Tears in eyes. Clenching my fist to hold my tears.

Called and told my mum about the result. She didn't say anything. Not even a word. What she said was " see! i told u. i knew it he's gonna do well......... ....." that's all. I was expecting her to say, "well done" or "it's ok, u do fine". No. NO!

Photo session was kinda funny. After that, we have Ewen Liew, u know i know what happened. 5sc1 feel is back. I miss u guys so much. Memories, it's just memories when i walked in SMK Sungai Maong. How i wished we can still get back into 5sc1 and study together.

Back at home, holding that piece of paper in my hand, tears roll down. I cried. The first time in my life, i cried for my freaking result. I hate this paper. I HATE IT!!! I feel like tearing it into pieces. But on second thought, it wouldn't change anything.

I'm now thinking to remark my BM. Should I or shouldn't I?



Updated at 5:58
She said, "ouh u did so well! great job!" It's just a tiny difference. And he was praised. What about me? Did you even hear my heart break?

Result ain't everything, 

but to me, it is. 

Excited and Nervous

*Breathe in breathe out... Breathe in breathe out..*

Okay. I'm ready. I'M NOT READY!! U got to be kidding me! How can i be ready now? NO WAY! TT I'm gonna be died tomorrow. Probably 11am.

CHOI!!!

TBH, i don't have faith in myself. Not even a bit. I have roughly think about how many As i might be getting. There's a number. Shhh. Very sia soi number. =)

Ou Ouh. Excited? BECOS I'M GONNA SEE 5SC1 TOMORROW MAMAMIIIAAAAA~ and someone *cough* 

Nervous? Do i even have to explain why?

So. I know someone who is abnormal, being excited because of what i'm being nervous of. RAWR! hmph. i'm gonna ask for YOUR result and text you. Darling you, you should know who you are. =)

God Bless Mehh.

20 march

Lilian, Envira, Leong, TKK, Charles, Sarah, Shirley Bong, Maxdy, Hope.

By this time last year, 2010, we were probably being nervous and excited at the same time. 10 clubs joint dinner. How can we ever forget this day? It's full of memories. We been through too many and experienced a lot. 

That was the best dinner for SMK Sungai Maong, i bet. I heard that the Junior did some dinners too. But kinda fail. No offense. haha. 

Thanks to the other 9 presidents, i had a memorable form 5/ last year in Sungai Maong, which makes me miss u guys so much now. TT 

erasable? no way.

UCSI and Swinburne

It's Open Day for UCSI and Swinburne today. Went to both colleges with Sze.

Conclusion: UCSI is quite small, but nice. Swinburne is way too big, but not that nice. Okay, no offense la. Just my opinion. I don't know why i like UCSI more. Maybe it's because we visited almost the whole building. And they have this SUPER 5 star facilities.

I'm not bluffing or something. They have this cool bistro, student lounge, labs of course, something like show rooms (er.. this is for hotel management students.). rahaha. And one more thing. We, Maong-ians were being praised. Proud to be one of them.

Swinburne is like 3 or 4 times UCSI size. It's way too big. Their labs are like 2 times the size of UCSI's, and they have plenty of classrooms. Oh ya, their labs are so high tech. And i saw something which reminds me of what we used to play at the chemistry lab. The yellow colour pull water thingy. Memories with last 5sc1. TT

In the lift at Swinburne, the girl told us that, Biotech mostly consist of girl. Something flew to my mind. I used to told Lilian that i wanna go for Biotech just because erherm.. ERHERM. What now? So i'm definitely NOT going for Biotech. ahahaha.

Nah, actually it's not because of that. I'm not going for that because it's related to DNA thingy. FYI, i hate DNA. :) sorry Pn Voon. During spm, i gave up everything about DNA. Spm standard i already gave up liao, what more to say for degree?

Dilemma. What should i choose? My dad encourages me to go for Pharmacy if i'm interested. So does my teacher. hmm...

Difficulty in choosing.

Give up

To give up something that you tried to achieve is hard. 

With a stupid reason behind. 

To try to breathe in fresh air is hard.

Because the air around is too polluted. 

anger

I don't understand. I just don't get it. Why do i even have to be treated this way!? I hate this. SERIOUSLY!!! Do u know why i wanna leave Kuching no matter what? It's because of all these shit.

This minute you will be like so fine. The next, you starts to show the ugly side. WTF did i do wrong!? NOTHING!

Everyone have something that scare the hell out of them. So do i? EVEN YOUR SON IS AFRAID OF THAT, WHY CAN'T I? 

I should have just leave on January. I shouldn't have think so much. I shouldn't have stay here just because TO SAVE YOUR MONEY!!!!!

You never try to understand.

Theory Exam

bahahahahahahaha. *cough* I sat for my theory exam yesterday. It's like SPM. Yesh. Seriously. The only difference was that, the candidates are all strangers. Well not all, I do know some.

I kinda regret for not bringing anything when i went there. The only thing i brought was a pencil case and my phone. -.- I should have bring the definition and memorize there. shiat. Okay, nevermind. It's over.

Shooting kills time =)

Ou ya.. There's one more thing. SPM, me = totally kin tio, last minute chiong-ing type. But theory exam, me = relax, enjoying the scenery. By the way, chung hua no.4 is SUI. Their buildings are all linked.

Anyway, it's another experience in life. =) I'm so proud of myself for taking up piano lesson (at this age ==). rahahaha.

My princess

Oh yeah yeah. Another drama is done. :) So it's time to share. You know me. I'm gonna share the sweet, heart fluttering parts. 

                            

The first time he hugs her. 

He seriously has super long eyelashes. 

Words can't describe this. 

He helps to wipe her face and ties her hair. awww..

rahaha. He says, forget this. And kisses her. I love that line. 

One more thing. His smile kills. There's something wrong with me i guess. Recently, i'm ONLY interested in guys  MEN. Yesh! First, Hyun Bin. Now, Seung Hun. Good news or bad? 

These are the selcas he took recently. 

 

THIS IS SO CUTE!!!!!!! <3

Last thing. *grabs tissue and stuff into nose*.....

It's not that i'm a pervert or something. Just that, he really has awesome body. Look at the 6 packs. rahahaha.

I still think Secret Garden is nice. I don't know why. D: 

Movie and kfc

I am number 4 is awesome. Except the part that SOMEONE scare me halfway. = = no wait. there were 2 SOMEONE. skip that part.

The movie effect was so.. sui! I jumped twice when something suddenly whooshed on the screen. I don't know was it my own feeling or that hall has louder sound effect... It was so loud that i had headache watching halfway... hmm...

After that we headed to food court. When we REACHED food court. Mark Chin suddenly say, i feel like eating kfc le. We turned back and went to kfc. On the way, we were talking about studies.

Mark : Curtin become very laoya after Swinburne lecturer transfer there.
me : *piak*
Mark : ouch! what?
me : i'm going to swinburne.
Matt : that piak was so loud. ahahahaha.

I think i am somehow related to John Smith in I am number 4. teehees. ouh. btw. Alex Pettyfer is hot. =)

Funny things always happen when u're eating. ;) I hate my phone camera for shooting so slowly. luckily they was an Iphone. =) roohahahahaha. 

yesh! there's val. =) 

The feeling is still there.