Him

When he told me that he was in school, my heart went out of control. I don't know what happened inside, but I know I couldn't breathe properly.

I didn't have the courage to look into bistro because i know he was in there. I just walked pass. I didn't feel alright. Not at all. Always thinking, why didn't I look inside? I just missed the chance to see him. Why?

When we came back to school, he was still there. That blue thing was still there. I couldn't breathe, again. That feeling is still there. Strong feeling. Shawnne reversed, and then i saw him in the car. I could hardly see him. He started the car, and there he went, out of the main gate. Without any conversation. Not even a text.

Yes

I miss him. 

Christmas

It's only near end of November, and there's christmas decorations everywhere, christmas song playing everywhere. 

My family don't really celebrate Christmas, but I am always so excited whenever Christmas is near. :) 

And guess what, I used to believe in the existence of Santa. But it turned out that my dad was the Santa. 

Some photos to share. 

Trial

HUGA HUGA! I'm back! *waves from a far*

*applause*

Hoi! Enough! Yeah right. Just finish my trial. And guess what, I almost screwed all the papers. Chemistry. *sigh and shake head* I think Miss Kho expected it. Before the trial she asked if I could at least get a B. Not knowing if I could hit the target, I nodded my head.

In the end, what happened? During the Unit 1 exam, I was like hell no! Miss Kho is going to be disappointed. T_T And yes I was right. After the last paper, I asked her how was my Chemistry. She smiled and said I expected that.

Someone kill me please? I really want to improve my chemistry. At least a B?

Biology. Okay I guess. :X no wait. I shouldn't say that. Forget about what I said. :) And Math was like hell. MR ANDREW CHAI!!! You better not be our math lecturer for the coming semester.


So yeah. I know I'm going to be really disappointed with myself when I get back my papers. Sobs.

One thing that makes me forget about the miserable exam life : Christmas. Ding ding dong! With christmas songs playing everywhere. Christmas trees. Snowman. I'm having the christmas feel already. What is more, TVXQ IS GOING TO RELEASE A CHRISTMAS ALBUM ON THIS COMING 30TH! Uknow. :3

pink

Hey there peepohs! I am alive again. Yes I know I haven't even started my trials yet. And I do care a lot for those bloody 6 piece of papers. 

I am trying my best to concentrate on my studies. BUT I FAILED. Every time I read Chemistry, that freaking image of him appears. Screw myself. 

*slaps*

He told me to focus on A-levels. So yeah I am doing what he said. Trying to leave everything behind, including him. No, I meant what I wanted to throw away is him. Just him. Nothing else. It's been more than a month since we last chatted. Every night, lying on the bed, with Xiao Bai sitting silently beside me. All I could remember was what happened. I no longer remember his face, nor his voice. And to be honest, I miss him a lot. I could give up anything just to see him again. But I knew for sure that, nothing's gonna happen by then. I would definitely just hide behind something and .... 

Recently, since I-don't-know-when, I become so happy when I see this particular someone. Haha. David teased me in front of Miss Kho and she smiled suspiciously. *facepalm* To make things clear, I swear it is not the way you thought it is. NO. NUH. It's just that the adrenaline rush thingy going inside of me, like maybe one day I have the chance to see Uknow, the same thing is going to happen! *O.O!!!!!* KYA Uknow! 

The pink guy 

*smiles*

I guess he loves pink?

sunny hill

Sunny Hill. Ice cream. That parking spot. That blue car. In front of the cashier. The tray. Those books that he told me about. That question he asked. The back-to-college road. Everything.

And those memories caused tears.

I still remember.

The flavour of ice cream for that day 

Strawberry.

dream and 321.2

321.2. Yeap that was an embarrassing incident. And makes it worst is that I had been dreaming of him for 3 nights in a row. Different dream. People say you dream of what you thought in the day. So I guess it is right. I think about him because I am searching for someone to replace him. Whenever I think about those stupid things, and before tears started to accumulate, I change target. I. ish. bad. I know.

So yeah, he was in my dream. That didn't mean anything, right? I know I shouldn't fall for the same mistake again. And most importantly, the feeling isn't the same.


My blog had been dead for like a week or so? I think there will not be frequent update starting this month as trial is around the corner. P.S. There's only 2 weeks left. And I haven't really started my revision. I'm so dead. Till then. :)

Life without you isn't so bad after all.